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Pursuing relationship and self actualization are, in fact, opposite choices. 

However, like the line between night and day, or dreaming and waking, there is a place where they become the same thing.

This is the first clue to the Buddhist idea of rigpa.

The closest moment to the rigpa is the moment of creativity.  That is why we must be very careful of our thoughts.  To give our life energy to a thought or idea is to realize it.

Original painting by Malian. Prints available at http://www.mauliolafestival.com

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Telling a Truer Story About Me

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The portals. All we are doing is telling a story about ourselves to everyone. Trying to tell a true story. And the portals are when we decide it’s time to change our story.

Yudhistira Purwanto took this photograph in Jogjakarta, Indonesia. I met him and his crew of cinematographic friends as I made my pilgrimage to my mother’s birthplace; becoming more of who I really am. Telling a truer story about me.

Portals are scary. We have to trust that there is something better on the other side. This  surrender is the teaching of the Asian philosophies. All the fantasy generated by the Ahamkara, the I-Maker (ego in English) is simply illusion. To invest in the illusion is a grand mistake.

I am Asian. It is my culture to release the illusion. It’s only a story. Maybe a playful story, maybe interesting. Maybe heart-rendering. But just a story. A story we can change.

Happy New Moon.

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House of Your Purity

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Oh you

Spiritual traveller

Connected to the stars

I saw you sleeping in the forest

Under hoary trees

With your overcoat on

The peace of cold clean water in your soul.

You slept with a clear conscience

In the house of your purity, your heart

Was sparkling truth

Your throat singing sweet chords of honesty.

I saw you, with long grey hair tied behind your head

Shaggy but tranquil

You kept my hair clip in your flannel pocket as a talisman

A message of love from the cosmos

And your dreams became sweet.

Why I Find #HillaryClinton’s #Interventionism Unbearable

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My mom was a refugee. My grandpa sent her away from Medan, Indonesia where she was born when she was 10 years old, because there was a genocide that began when the CIA tried to overthrow the communist president Sukarno and turn people against his alliance with China, by spreading the rumor that the Chinese in Indonesia were oppressing the indigenous by making a lot of money while others didn’t, very much like the Holocaust was rationalized in Germany. 

I live to this day with the post traumatic stress of my grandpa and my mom, and while I’ve been mostly able to heal from it, they definitely haven’t. That is why I find #HillaryClinton’s #interventionism unbearable; because I know that the devastating consequences will last far after she is dead and there is no worthy reason to take other sovereign nations’ right to succeed or fail on their own terms, away from them. We don’t know their culture, we don’t know their laws.  These are wars of self interest, more than anything.  
 
Secretary Clinton did get to intervene in Libya and when critics say her elimination of Gaddafi led to the rise of Isis, she blames Obama for not having bombed Libya after Gaddafi was killed. So goeth the narrative with Syria. Since we know her friend #SidneyBlumenthal was hoping to get a huge government medical care contract from the replacement government with Libya, we can infer (and debate the legitimacy of inferring) that they had assumed a standard US issued government like those in Iraq and Afghanistan would be installed – what people in other countries like to call “puppet governments”. The world is pretty tired of that sort of proxy colonialism that the US has practiced for years – the kind John Perkins has documented Henry Kissinger being a proponent of in his book “Hoodwinked”. 
 
When you know the extent of the damage done by our agents worldwide, you will stop seeing Isis or Osama Bin Laden as demons and start realizing that they are human beings responding to conditions that the US helped create. Osama was there when his parents cut deals with the Bush family for oil, that would disenfranchise the people of Saudi Arabia, who live in abject conditions while their rulers profit from corruption. John Perkins details his involvement in that corruption in his book “Confessions of an Economic Hit Man”. 
 
The people of Isis have been radicalized by constant violence, death and ultimately heartbreak which has been ongoing in their region since 2001.  It’s been 15 constant years of unrelenting violence.  Many of them were children whose minds were still developing when exposed to this tidal wave of violence that we decided to unleash on them for no good reason.  We haven’t apologized to the mothers whose babies died, the women or men who were raped, for #AbuGhraib, for the destroyed infrastructure, cultural treasures, farms, or lives.
 
Violence breeds violence.  Love breeds love.  When we are taught to see the other side as evil, it is meant to cast ourselves as innocent. Which means we can hide our own evil and our own darkness from ourselves by projecting it onto the other.
 
Secretary Clinton is less morally compromised than Donald Trump, still she believes that she has to be compromised in order to succeed. 

 
Corporations who give her money, like Monsanto, stack the ranks of regulatory agencies like the EPA, and their chief is appointed BY THE PRESIDENT, which in turn makes it impossible for us to get approval for safe, organic pest control used widely in other countries (in just one of many examples) and criminalizes many important agricultural practices like actively aerated compost tea (illegal to transport across TMK lines meaning someone can’t start a business making it really well for other farmers).  
 
What I’m not willing to accept is that a so-called feminist candidate is willing to support biotech companies who spray little kids with pesticides in Kaua`i schools and then refuse to tell doctors what the kids were sprayed with. I’m not willing to accept a woman whose mentor is Henry Kissinger, a sociopath who engineered the economic demise of many developing nations by assassinating their leaders. I’m not willing to accept the corporate rape of Honduras and Central America assisted by this woman who prevented a democratically elected leader from returning to his post. And I’m not willing to accept the ignorance of that same woman who wanted to send back child refugees fleeing from the violence that she was instrumental in unleashing. I’m going to have another choice and I think the world will be uplifted by having a leader who sees that peace is more powerful than war.
 
What I believe is that I cannot accept that these horrors will be perpetuated because we all just settle for things being kinda wrong. That “kinda wrong” for first worlders means “my village was terrorized by corporate soldiers and several farmers were murdered because they wouldn’t give up their land and some young girls were raped” for a ‘third worlder. 
 
Bernie may be wrong on some things, however I think when challenged he makes an effort to inform himself, as he did with #BlackLivesMatter. He is running on the premise that he can’t accept a certain level of wrong because the cost of that complacency is too great. That is where he has got me and where my passion to see him elected comes from.
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Money in the New Paradigm

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We live in an age where money is not used to meet real physical needs.

Rather, money is used to meet emotional needs.

When something seems too painful, too difficult to tackle, or too confusing, looking at numbers seems to provide reassurance that at least something in the world is reliable and true.

Or does it?  Because so many people with unresolved pain and broken hearts, working through the money system, distorts it.

The ideal of the market is very different from the emotional, impulse driven decision making of people who live through money.

What we have forgotten is that the ancient healers had ways of healing broken hearts, setting us free from inner torment.  Many people still learn their ways today and use them to heal each other.

Traditional healers often worked via emotions, thoughts, and dreams; intangible experiences that we now know influence our body’s health and well being, and our choices through neurotransmitters.

Escaping from emotional chaos into money does not ever heal the wound that causes the chaos.  There are ways to heal that wound, but it has to be looked at, spoken of, and treated.  It cannot heal if it is ignored.

In the world where ignored wounds express themselves unconsciously through peoples’ decisions about money, the pain has free rein to unleash itself across the face of the earth.

It is better when we take time to care for ourselves enough, to experience emotional healing.  In order to do this, we must believe that we are worthy of healing.  We must be worthy of love, in our own imagination.  We must be worthy of health, joy, and balance.

We have to forgive ourselves for everything we have ever regretted in our lives and completely accept that forgiveness.  Then, our true healing can begin.

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I am a Farmer.

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I’m a good farmer. I prepare my soil, I use organic and Korean Natural Farming methods. I add fertility from natural sources. I use beneficial insects, not bug spray.

The food I grow is delicious and aesthetically beautiful. It’s got texture and nutrition.

I deliver food to my customers with love. Today I handed off green beans prepared with love and gave the chef a kiss on the cheek.

Being a farmer teaches me about love. I love my land. I want to conserve its soil and prevent erosion. I want the soil to have healthy structure, and biology.

I love my plants. If they are rotting, or shriveled and dying, or being attacked by some bugs, it hurts me deep in my heart. When I see them thriving and producing bountiful and beautiful food, I am proud and yet humbled in the same moment by their gift.

Like a loving mother, these plants offer food from their bodies to nourish us. They connect to us, deep in our wiring. We evolved together and they know how to hook us in and interest us, without us realizing it.

In turn, we Farmers offer this gift of love and intimacy to people who are hungry. We couldn’t give them bad stuff or stuff that makes them sick. It’s better to throw something away then harm anyone.

Love is how farming works. You need love and compassion to be a good farmer. Farming makes you realize that Love is a navigational tool for all of life. Love is a self-ordering principle. It always leads you to the most effective, easiest way to do something, get somewhere in life or get what you truly want. All it takes is a little patience.

If you make your whole life about “by when” am I going to have what I want, you’ll never end up with it. That’s for sure. You have to love your way into it. Which means that you getting what you want will be good for everybody.

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Where have all the real feminists gone: A critique of Hillary Clinton from the left (Part 2)

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There is a book coming out called My Turn by author Doug Henwood  on the concept of “humanitarian intervention” that is a key concept of Hillary Clinton’s foreign policy.

Espoused by UN ambassador Samantha Power and Defense Secretary Susan Rice, as well as comedian Stephen Colbert, “humanitarian intervention” is an idea that if other countries’ leaders don’t measure up to our humanitarian standards, we have the right to intervene and kill or depose those leaders.

This is what justified Hilary Clinton to arm Syrian rebels (contributing to the rise of ISIS) against Assad, depose Gaddafi in Lybia, and remove President Zelaya of Honduras.

Journalists have called the ensuing chaos in Honduras “butchery”. “Humanitarian intervention” brought on worse humanitarian crises than they were intended to subvert. These crises she blames on Barack Obama. Meanwhile, families are living in tent cities or drowning in the Mediterranean trying to flee from conditions in those areas of the world that have been mismanaged.

The real reasons for her decisions were that she was being advised by “friends” who stood to make a lot of money on weapons, government contracts and political advantage in those countries. However she is not opposed to using military intervention simply for the purpose of gaining economic advantage in other countries.

Keep in mind, those military interventions are extremely expensive for the taxpayer, lucrative for the owners of private corporations, and all the while our educational system, infrastructure, and social safety net in the US are – not to put too fine a point on it – crap.

For more information on this topic please check out the following:

Critics Attack ‘Disgusting’ Anti-Hillary Book Cover, But The Artist Supports ‘Sexy’ Clinton

Doug Henwood’s radio archives

Behind the News with Doug Henwood

The Next Act of the Neocons

 

Hillary Clinton’s Neocon Legacy: Coups, Dictators, Corruption, Chaos, Executions and Assassination

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